Pneumonia – now that got my attention! (Part 1 of 7)

I just recently got over having pneumonia. And if you’ve ever had pneumonia, you’d know it pretty well puts your life into a complete shut down. Breathing is labored. Making one trip up or down the stairs requires a 30 minute nap. Once the coughing starts it becomes...

Unexpected Outburst of Anger (Part 2 of 7)

Finally, the doctor said the infection was gone, but now he determined I was anemic. So, even though the pneumonia was over, the physical fatigue would hang on for awhile, until I had replenished my iron level. At this point, I was convinced it was all part of one...

Only I can release myself from their judgment (Part 3 of 7)

The pressure behind my eyes from the intense crying remained for a couple of days which was a continual reminder that the anger that had finally been liberated was monumentally significant in my journey. My head was now filled with thoughts trying to reconcile these...

Distorted body image (Part 4 of 7)

I was so excited by how these issues in my life were unfolding before me: 1) I had pneumonia that pointed me to unresolved anger. 2) The anger finally had a voice, and uncovered the anger at the injustice of my family viewing me as the “fat one”. 3) Still in search to...

Midnight Munchies (Part 5 of 7)

For the next couple of days, I was being so deliberate about asking the answers to come to me. But, nothing was coming and I was getting frustrated. And then, I noticed how strong this feeling was to get answers, and I recognized a sense of desperation (a negative...

Was it all just a waste? (Part 6 of 7)

And no sooner did I think to myself, I wonder what’s next, and the next question popped up… “how can I look at living the last 40+ years of distorted body-image in a way that I can appreciate?” Later that morning, a friend called. And I shared my recent experiences...

Re-connection (Part 7 of 7)

I was beginning to get lost in all of the old thoughts and all of the new thoughts as so much has been revealed and explored in a short period of time. Where was I in the process of getting resolution and ultimately the freedom from the negative feelings? I know I...